Super quick but...

I JUST SENT IN MY APPLICATION TO CALARTS!!!!!!!!

Now all that's left is my portfolio.... :3

So, yesterday I went to National Portfolio day! ...1.5 hours late. XD I slept in. But I only wanted to see two schools, so that wasn't that big of a deal.

Starting from the top, I was so super nervous, because I had ZERO time to pick out exactly the right pieces. Like, I didn't even really think. The night before (at 1:30 the night before!) I just kinda whipped out all of my stuff, eliminated those I hated, threw the rest back in the case, went to sleep, woke up, screamed at my alarm clock for being turned off and not waking me up, grabbing two random canvases, my portfolio (which is in a big bike box, more on that later), trudged out into snow and fog, loaded up my car, grabbed my boyfriend, and we drove the 2.5 hours to get to Phoenix, where portfolio day was held.

It was intense. I was nervous, but being around all these little high schoolers, I felt a little more confident.

(By the way, high schoolers are crazy. Just saying. XD And jerks. I kinda felt massive shaudenfreude watching some of them, particularly those who you could tell thought they were "all that," but really, really, reeeeaaalllllyyy weren't. A whole group of them tried to talk to the lady all at once ahead of us, and they were all fighting about who did which piece of art, and I'm just like "heh, punks." Anyways, I'm done with that rant).

So, basically, when half-awakedly piecing together my portfolio, I focused my attention on the Calarts requirements, because that is THE school I want to go to. I waited in line for fricken ever, and my boyfriend even came with me and helped me carry my bike box (that serves as a portfolio for my uber-huge drawings). Then I get up there, and showed the Calarts lady all my stuff.

And you know what??

She liked it!!

She told me to do much more gestural stuff, that's loose and flowy, from models, but that I looked in real good shape with all my stuff. I was practically dancing. Am I really part of the 33% population of applicants who gets accepted??? That's, like, a third of the applicants!! I really, really, really hope so. I really want to go to Calarts. I want to be A-MAZE-ING!!!

Oh, I have a big problem though in result of Portfolio Day. I brought in some of my figure drawing class assignments, which are on HUGE pieces of paper. The thing is, Calarts wants originals... but literally, these drawings are almost 4 feet tall!! XD So I got the email of someoen and I wrote her asking her what would be the best method for sending them in. I hope she gets back to me, like, super duper crazy soon.

So, anyways, after Calarts I go to the CCA line, which was right at the next table, lawl, and showed my work to a slightly more aloof and less-enthused person, and she was like "Ugh, all these sketchy drawings - no, gimme more completed stuff!" which is so totally the opposite of Calarts, so that was hilarious. But she basically accepted my portfolio during that time, but I'm going to send in one anyway.

I was so proud of myself, because these were both interviews - they'll go back to the school and be part of the review process. And I think I did well! I spoke about my artwork confidently, and explained my story and my reasoning in going, and they were like "Oh that's awesome!" So yup. I think it worked out grand. I've decided to not even bother applying to Otis or Cornish. Just focus on the Big Two.

Afterwards, omfg, $1 meatballs at IKEA. 8P I'm a nerd.

And other than that, things have been crazy. The reason why I couldn't even begin to start figuring out my portfolio was because of finals (all last week), and I was doing props for the play A Christmas Story at the community theater (which has the most devilish director ever in the history of forever - and she was one of my old teachers! Like, everyone is pissed at her. It's so crazy.) Now I have two days to get everything in order here, then I head all the way back home to my family on Wednesday. (Kinda freaking out because for the last, uhhhh, 3 months, I kept thinking I would be heading home on Thursday. Whoops). Oh, also, I really want a nose piercing.

So that's that! Hope everyone is having an awesome holiday season and such!! Wish me luck as my life progresses into "HOMFG GOTTA GET THAT PORTFOLIO SENT IN BLAAAAAAAURGH!!!!" time. xP

So, here's the lowdown on what's happening to me (for the three of you who care).

1) Still going to attempt to graduate by taking 21 credits next semester. I know. How about I just blow my brains out now, instruct someone to smear the bloody pieces of gray matter all over the canvases and have that be my exhibition. XD It's less work for me, anyways. My advisor has assured me that I can pull it off. We'll have to see. 18 credits of it is purely art credit, all taught by one fucking guy. -_- Bleh....

2) Still going to attempt Art Schools!! Applying to Calarts (homfg!), CCA, and then Otis and Cornish as possible backups. I. So. Hope. I. Get. In. To. Calarts. H.O.M.F.G. I've been sketching almost nonstop trying to fill an entire sketchbook by Dec 12th (That's Portfolio Day -- HOLY CRAP THAT IS IN TWO WEEKS!!! O_____o OhmigawdohmigawdsomuchworktodoAUGH!!!

3) Volunteered as a props person for a local theater company. Was going well until social anxiety/fear of failure wore me down. XD which, of course, sends me into a kind of "Homfg I'm gonna fail ANYWAYS and see what goes on there," although not really... I'm supposed to find a dead bowling ball, and I'm sorry, but walking up to the bowling alley and saying "I can haz ball plz?" scares the SHIT out of me! And I have tons of props to make but I came home for Thanksgiving and am soooooooooooo far behind. SO MANY PROPS TO BUY/MAKE!!! Not to mention I have an essay to write by Monday, a creative book to make by Tuesday, AND a spanish oral exam on Tuesday!!! AAAAUGH!!!!!

4) HOMFG I GOT A NEW PHONE!!!! XD After 3 years with a wonderful phone, I convinced my dad to get me a new one. I was basically all set to get the updated version of what I already had (an LG NV), but I ended up just going ahead and getting a droid! And you know waht?! AAAAAAAAAAAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZZ IIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! My boyfriend may even get one! XD He's got an iphone right now - take THAT iphone! And without being an iphone, it knocked out two birds with one stone - I needed a new phone AND a new ipod! It just worked out swimmingly.

5) Um... uh... I feel like 5 is a better number to end on than 4? xD I'm kinda crazy, leeme 'lone!

So, my advisor is.... how should I put this... an effing stupid moron.

I went to him back in the Spring and I was like "Hey, yo, help me graduate! What classes do I need?" and he was like "Well, you don't need to worry about this or that... so take these art history classes and take that capstone and this art class and make sure to get your writing and 3D design classes done, and you're golden!" and I'm like "...really? That's it? AWESOME!"

Um.... no... that wasn't it.

Turns out, the stuff he was like "Oh, we're getting rid of this requirement, don't worry about it" really means "Worry about it."

So he wants me to take 24 credits next semester to graduate. The maximum the university will allow.

Fuck. That.

I've decided I'm done with this school, and the awesome thing? My dad thinks so too. He's like "If you're not happy, and if it's this awful, then it's not worth it. Why don't you look into some other options??"

So I will.

Take that NAU. You're a whore and I hate you. Phbbbbbt!!!

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So, there's been some changes occuring here in mah life that I thought I'd blab about somewhere, because I have so few places to post about my life X_X I'll pretend I have tons and tons of friends on here, mkay.

First off - quit my job and OMFG FREEDOM ROCKS!!! I am searching for a new one, but I don't particularly want one, because right now, I'm like "HOMFG YES I HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO DO HOMEWORK AND TO PROCRASTINATE DOING HOMEWORK!!!" XP And hang out with friends, which I like never got to do ever, and it made me very very depressed because I kinda feed on attention (as if no one ever noticed). I'm an attention vampire that SO DOES NOT SPARKLE! (effing sparkles)

My ukulele came in the mail! And I love it! I know how to play 8 chords off the top of my head!! 8D Whoopie!!!

With my newfound unemployment, I have FINALLY DECIDED TO DO NANOWRIMO!!! ([link]). My boyfriend has done it the past three years, won the last two, and is totally Municipal Liaison for my area this year! So, I thought, goddamnit, I'm doing it!!! I'm super excited. My story is what I would call an "alternate autobiography," so it's my life, but it's talking about a big "what-if," mainly "what if I did what I always wanted to do, and just pack up and drive in some direction away from this fricken place?" And end up in a place much like Spectre in the movie Big Fish... something like that. :3 I'm excited. I think it'll be fun! Kind of an exploration into how I think and feel and experience the world...

Oh, and hey, speaking of this godforsaken school, I've decided to stick around. Why? CUZ I CAN EFFIN GRADUATE IN MAY, BEYATCHES!!! 8DDD I totally found a class that packs three classes into one, so I can just take a winter psych class and then 16 credits next semester (or 13 and do one summer class, but still walk in May), and then I'm DONE!!!

So, in a couple months, you're going to be seeing lots of "OH GOD WHAT DO I DO NOW WITH THIS WORTHLESS-ASS DEGREE!?!?!?!" posts. XP But we'll get there when we get there.

Still not doing much art, sadly. Motivation is still completely shot. (Depression is a bitch, people. The Cymbalta ads don't lie). Hopefully I'm on my way to being a little more normal. We'll have to see.

ARGH!!! MIDTERMS SUCK!!! I was actually supposed to PAY ATTENTION in lecture?! GOD I HATE EARLY CHRISTIAN ART!!! /rant

Anywho, happy Tuesday!

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